Hi all you fabulous readers out there! My name is Susannah Turner and I am one of the associate directors of Residence Life here at Ohio State and I will be blogging this year about what it’s like to go through a time of transition in our department.
First of all, let me say that I NEVER thought that I would ever be blogging about anything, much less about things related to work. Let me give you some context. I didn’t use e-mail in grad school, much less undergrad. When I arrived at Ohio State, as a hall director, in 1998, we still had e-mail that had green type and a black screen. I didn’t own a computer until my husband and I got married (in my mind they are still, technically, “his computers”). I am not what you would call technologically savvy, so needless to say, this blogging thing, makes me nervous.
Why nervous? Well, I wonder if I have anything interesting to say. Other blogs I have read (which amounts to two) are written by people who are on adventures abroad, namely Semester at Sea. They are interesting to me because it brings back memories from my own adventures. I also wonder what people will say about what I have to say. Yes, although a blog is my own experience about my work in transition, there will be people who will read this and judge me for better or for worse. That makes me nervous.
I am a relatively private person in my everyday life, so putting myself out there on the World Wide Web, brings on a small case of the hives. But all my nerves aside, I am hoping that as I write and I read what others write about our same experiences, I will learn from their experiences. I also hope I will learn from what you, out there in what I consider outer space, have to say to me in response to this online journaling experiment. Yes, this is an experiment that we hope will bring our housing worlds together and help us find community in shared experiences. So, I encourage you to continue reading, commenting, and being a part of this community.
So enough about my fears. Today, I really wanted to talk about feelings. As we have gained new leadership and begun what is an inevitable change when anything new comes around, one of the messages we are beginning to implement is to leave how we “feel” about things out of business decisions. The phrase that we have thrown around is, “It’s just business.”
Now, I think that some folks have misapplied this phrase. To me, it doesn’t mean that you can’t have a feeling about some decision or work-related thing, it just means that we aren’t going to shy away from doing the right thing or making the right decision, just because I don’t like it. And it means that I shouldn’t be afraid to talk to someone who isn’t doing okay or is affecting me negatively because of a fear of how it might make them feel. It holds us to a higher standard of professionalism, I think.
Now, for some folks that know me, they will wonder what alien came and invaded my body when they read this. I am someone who can’t help but care about what other people are feeling, that’s how I show up in the world — Care first! But, I also understand that it’s my responsibility to do what’s right and if I am upset or don’t like it, then it isn’t my department’s job to make it better for me.
But, I digress. When I say I want to talk about feeling, what I mean is the atmosphere, vibe, or energy in a room. Before we began planning for this academic year, as a department, there were times, when I thought that there was a large rain cloud hanging over us. People walked into the room and barely spoke to other colleagues. When someone presented a new idea, he or she was greeted by silence and blank stares. The feeling in the room was dark, dank, bored, lethargic, and even apathetic. It made me sad to be in that place. Now, with some new thoughts, new freedom, a new perspective on our work, the energy in the room is light, bright, energetic, and even enthusiastic.
When the people in the room want to be there, want to get to know each other, want to have a good time, everything changes. The feeling around me makes me smile. It makes me happy. I feel more willing to be risky and try new things. When a new idea is presented, instead of wondering what the point is, I wonder how it can be put into practice. I enjoy coming to work and thinking creatively. As paraprofessional training begins, it’s exciting to see the energy the hall staff have, which means that the RAs will be enthusiastic, which means that the students will be excited, and in the end it means that we will have begun in the best place possible, with possibility for the future (instead of fear of the unknown).
So, despite the fact that, yes, it’s a business, I hope that we continue to feel like a place where fun is good, where creativity and enthusiasm is the norm, and where we enjoy the work that we do because we know it makes a difference.
I’m curious… What do you think about how your department “feels?” Should how a place “feels” even matter? Share with me in the comments section below. I promise you won’t hurt my feelings.